You are more than enough for me.

I continue to wrestle with my flesh... the doubt, the fear... the questions. There is an urgency in my spirit that something amazing is around the corner, yet at the moment all i feel is pain... frustration... and slowly but surely Im growing more and more weary. I don't have the answers. Truth is, I honestly don't need the answers. What I need more than anything, is a fresh touch..a fresh encounter with my Savior, Jesus Christ. I need his strength today. I am weak... I am burdened... I fight and fight, feeling as if im beating the air somewhat like Paul wrote about. I've overcome a lot, yet I have a whole life ahead with more trials and battles. I can't deny the fact that sometimes its a scary road to travel down when you're living a life completely surrendered to Christ. Its not an easy path. The higher the calling, the higher the cost. I find myself praying for more anointing..strength...wisdom.. and depth... yet when its game time, I question and become overwhelmed. In reality, Im getting exactly what I've been asking for...

So I come before your feet of grace, Savior,

my precious King...I love you. I need you. Im broken. My heart is overwhelmed.. but you are more than enough for me. You are the air I breathe...you are each smile on each face that I see...you are the sunny day that brings joy to my Spirit...you are the stars in the sky that make me realize all over again how matchless you truly are. I see you in each face. I see you in nature. The birds sing praises to your name...the wind whispers, glorifying the One I love. The ocean claps its waves bringing honor to the Great I Am. My heart beats to live every second of every moment, all for you. Ive tried other things, yet I am complete and whole and new and refreshed, only in You. Life overwhelms me at times...I see the hurting. I see the lost. Bad things happen that leaves me with so many unanswered questions. Yet in the midst of chaos, I find rest in You, Oh Lord. Who or what can compare to your greatness? You are more than enough for me.... Jesus, You are more than enough for me...I declare it til the day that I see you face to face..you are more than enough for me. I love you. Thank you for sending your Son, to die upon a cross...so that I could live today. Although this day may be full of pain and suffering...I fix my eyes on eternal things...for this life is but a vapor. If it takes heartache to become closer to you, Father..then give me heartache...if it takes pain and suffering to rescue others..then give me pain and suffering... if it takes brokeness...then break me. It hurts...but its going to be worth it all. I believe.

"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may be revealed in our body."

2 Corinthians 4:7-10

"Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way; in great endurance; in trouble, hardships and distresses; in beating, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, yet possessing EVERYTHING."

2 Corinthians 6:4-10

Thank you, once again, for reading.

May God bless you and His beautiful grace open your eyes to the beauty of His love.

Jesus loves you, my friend. He knows your situation...and is walking with you. You're not alone.